(L) Zammmmmmmmmy zap.

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Today was his last journey . Gathered at th wake thr , thn pray , thn aft tht started t walk th distance . but walked a short distance only . Thn headed t Mandai . Did some chanting thr too . Thn we walk around th coffin . It was damn emo can . Thn around 2.50 , go th viewing place thr . Everyone was like sobbing & mourning , & seriously can hear th sound derh lah . Somemore we were saying th ' namo~amithapha thing ' It was emotional cos when he just passed away , we all chanted fr him like frm morning 7.50+ till 4pm . So it reminds us of tht . Mum was sobbing & saying ' paaaaaa !' Yi yi also . Its looking at someone you loved so much , burning into ashes & bones . Th feeling cant be described . You will experience it one day . I won't see him again , its was so sudden . His body deteoriated very terribly , & we all know tht he's gonna leave us soon , but when he left , you'll feel tht its sudden . & service hall 4 , I couldnt control my tears , even dad , behind me . He couldnt even say th namo~amithapha thing properly . & th chanting made us feel worse . & tmr we still have t go wan fo ling t collect his ashes . & we had t take one bone each & put in th urn . Seeing his coffin slowly enter th fire chamber , thinking of wht he did fr us . Everything he did , he thought of our feelings first .We like t eat soutao , he will take some of them frm his cakeshop back fr us . & apparantly th plastic bags too . Th ' liu zhuang ji ' plastic bag . We have loads at our house , waipo house & my unce & aunty's houses . Everything seems t remind me of his . When i eat lu dou gao , luku , icecream , kaya , laopo bing , & cny cookies tht he always sponsored us . They were th best cookies . Most delicious . He often delivered th kaya t us . He made th effort t help us order & buy th kaya , aft work , & even delivered it t our home . Can you imagine at th age of 76 , still working & doing so much fr us ? Even when he was going through his chemo , he was still working . From now on , one less person in my life , in our life . I still can't get over th fact tht i won't be seeing him again . Just one day i dint go t visit him , & he just left like tht . Tmr would be another day . I'll try my best , t stay strong .
& waigong's oldest brother , was being so childish . They had quite a number of disagreements , but afterall they're still brothers . He shouldn't even bear a single grudge . & he dint attend waigong's funeral . wtf right ? Out of 5 days , he dint even come once . One of waigong's younger brother , had some disagreement too , but he came . Everyday somemore . Wht's his problem lah . He alrd passed away , thn why is he still bearing grudges . Fr wht . He's so lame . Fornicater .l.